I’m still working on being a good steward. It’s not that I am frivolous in my spending, or purposely wasteful. But by not consciously thinking about the things I spend my money on I am being careless with the things God is trusting me with. 

When I started looking at how I was “managing” it…I saw how incompetent I was. But I know enough not to dwell on that, because our God always gives us another chance to get it right. And although I know it is not going to be easy, I know God will give me grace enough to make it through. I have to keep reminding myself that everything belongs to God, and He allows us the privilege to manage it for Him. When I think about it that way, it makes me sad that I may be letting God down.  

I don’t know if you guys struggle with maintaining a budget, but I have a hard time keeping my budget straight. I don’t know why. It’s not like I have money to burn. I just can’t seem to stick to it. I have tried the Dave Ramsey method. I have tried to only use cash. I have even tried only going to the store once a week. Nothing works.

But I’m not giving up, because the desire is there, and the Bible says that if we delight ourselves in the Lord, He will give us the desires of our heart. I definitely desire to delight myself in the Lord. So that means that I have to want what He wants more than I want what I want.

I am confident that God is not leading me down this path to a dead end. That’s not who He is. He wants us to be successful. What I do know is that this whole experience is bringing me closer to God…and I am sure that was His purpose all along.

Until next time…

Be blessed