Looking at my life, I started wondering how I got here. Why I am who I am, and why I do, or don’t do certain things. But really what I was looking at was my physical life. Not my spiritual life. That…I have no doubts about. I noticed that my physical life didn’t quite stack up to what I had envisioned my life would be like at this point. 

I always believed that my husband and I would live our lives doing exactly what we had dreamed about. He would play music, I would write lyrics, and we would make beautiful music together. But that wasn’t God’s plan.

What I realized is that I hadn’t consulted God at all. I figured it was my dream, so He must have given it to me, right? The Bible says that He will give us the desires of our hearts. Wait. Was that really our desire, or was it my desire? I don’t know. I think I may have assumed that it was my husband’s desire. Hmmm?

Unfortunately, I will never know, because he went home to be with the Lord. But what I do know is that he loved me so much that he would have done just about anything to make me happy…even cosign a dream he didn’t dream. He was definitely my hype man…lol.

So I guess even if my life is not what I envisioned, and I don’t always do the things I should…it is still a good life. God still has a plan for me. It would be better if he were here, but I know that his spirit is with me. I feel him pushing me. Telling me to go to all of the places he wanted to take me, and to walk out all of those things I dreamed about. 

And I promise to do everything I can to make him proud.

Until next time…

Be blessed,.